Trying to please two men and myself

My dad has always like short hair.   I get moments and I want to cut my hair.   Like today.   Like the cut..... the colour.....   Well it is very similar to the colour I was born with.   But every time I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror I get a shock.     Now my husband likes long hair.    And well.........      I don't know what I want!   Maybe not to see the wrinkles anymore and be 20 years younger.     So no animals today.    Only got out to get my hair cut and the cat was hiding.   So I'll be on it later.